Yet now I am writing
this post on the back of a week of what I can really only describe as
a 'whole body religious experience'. I don't know how else you would
describe launching yourself onto the floor dressed in bright red
robes with two likewise dressed companions in what my husband
described as 'seamless ninja style'. But lest you think I really have
become an inhabitant of crazy town, let me explain.
This week I've been
celebrating Easter at the church where I have been on placement all
year. For those not inducted into the weirdness of the Church of
England, you get a whole range of different styles of service
depending on where you go. This can be quite fun, one occasionally
likes to indulge in a little church shopping, but can also be a tad
confusing for the uninitiated like the poor American tourists I spoke
through these peculiarities at the Cathedral a couple of weeks ago.
This particular church
I've been at has more in common with a catholic church in its style
and draws on services from way back yonder which can be a bit odd and
hard to get your head round but can also can be pretty cool. There is
a sense of continuity with it all and a sense of connectedness to the
past which in our frantic age is actually really life affirming. You
also smell really nice when you leave because they are crazy for the
incense.
But what I have loved
about this week so far has been the powerful effect of the services
based not just on what someone has said but on what I have seen and
felt. Whether that is the changing colours of the robes, or the
altars being stripped of all their candles, or the church being
plunged into darkness as thick as the night.
This is quite exciting
really because it means it is open to anyone even if you have
previously considered such things to be the reserve of the residents
of crazy town. You may get a bit lost sometimes and perpetually worry
that someone is going to tell you off for getting it wrong *ahem,
my constant fear* but the pay off for diving in and really experiencing
something new is vast.
Because what I have
discovered about these strange old services is that they connect
somehow to something deeply recognizable and ordinary. This I am
putting down to the fact that it connects to human things by virtue
of it connecting powerfully to your body. You feel the cold
underneath your feet (or your whole body in my case!), you touch and
you see and it somehow connects to who you are now, a living,
breathing human being with all your weaknesses and triumphs. It's
less 'pie in the sky when you die' and more 'gosh, this life I am
living is terrifying and wonderful and overwhelming and more than I
can handle, it's nice to take a minute, let it all sink in and
consider it in a new way.'
So I don't know,
perhaps I am still eligible to be a resident of crazy town after
today but perhaps not. Perhaps it's all just a bit more ordinary that
I first thought in the most wonderful way. Perhaps I might do a bit
more of this 'Whole Body Religion' thing.
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